NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY MIND BUT TO ESCAPE!!!

actually there are some difficulties for me to accept the truth that you have already couple with another guy...

i still remember that day that after i read your through your wall...(facebook)

and saw that you are in relationship with a unknown guy(for me of course...)

i am totally down!!!

i totally hate that feeling....

that kind of feeling is torturing me...

after a while...

then i started to think...

thinking am i good to be so angry on an unknown...

trying to kill that guy...

trying to ask you who is that guy....

where at the end all the thing will just hurt myself and maybe will also cause our friendship broken....

and...

when i have asking you who is that guy...

and you just ignored me...

and after that i sms you with no reply....

you doing this is not you are not happy to me but you have taken the time to accompany your "bf"...

for more time....

haih...

here...

i just wanna to say sorry to you because i have been kinda not looking at you and seldom talk to you...

cause...

i am trying to get rid of the "love" in me upon you now...

cause it is not good for me to love someone where she have already become others...

so sorry...

if the ignorant makes our friendship really just gone like this...

it's okay...(actually not okay....><""")

i am going to wish you and your behalf will be together happily...

and hopefully your behalf will treated you well...

so be happy!!!

(trying to be gentleman here...><''')

hope you will get your happiness well!!!!

(still trying to be calm here....><""")

~WHY DO I???? ~AND YOU DON'T???

why do i smile at your voice and your attend???

why i feel joyful at your caring???

why i done the way you wanted???

why i stress on your lie???

why i speak but you don't???

is this the way that it gonna be like???

is this the ending of ours???

is this the results you meant for???

if yes....and i do you don't....

then you are really "NOT" the person i have searching for....

you are "NOT"!!!!

wait...wait....wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!(ZoZ)

sickening....

haiz...

i just doesn't know why...

already know i am kinda emotional before...

sickening of waiting...

then please follow done the thing faster...

just faster...

before this i am a very very emotional guy...

but you guys still making things s~l~o~w....

seriously..

even changing clothes....

also takes for an hour!!!!

thats still okay for me...

because you all are girls...

but..

if i have changed now...

can wait you guys...

and not so emotional...

still can control...

then can you all be more thankful for that...

just make things faster....

not slower than before!!!.

really freaking me out la!!!!!

i still remember...

you guys said after exam we go to jusco...

you guys we will be fast...

don't worried...

OMG!!!!!

just taking bath...

and take shower...

it really takes more than 2 hours!!!!!!

seriously...ZZZZ

dear readers...

if you were me...

what is your reaction???
zzzzzzzzzzz

i still remember another incident...

where i have to go back t my old town...

i ask you guys to wait for my reply on when to go out together...

seriously la...

because if that i already quarrel so many time with my parent...

just because wanted to come back here earlier...

and i don't even know the date of coming back...

so i change the date every time...

what is the response of you all...

scolding me...

say why i always like this!!!!!!!!!!

seriously!!!!
is that calling always....

you are mentioning me or you yourself...

now...

dear readers again...

if you were me...

doesn't this making you become emotional?????????

if this is called as emotional...

then you guys have to think...

WHO IS THE ONE WHO MAKE THIS PEOPLE(ME!!!) EMOTIONAL!!!!

DOESN'T THE THING YOU ALL DONE MAKING ME EMOTIONAL???????

if you guys say

it's your problem...

you are the one who want to wait...

you can go late also...

then you are damn wrong now!!!

i go earlier because i don't want you guys wait...

but you all does not appreciate me at all!!!!

read properly k....

THIS IS WHAT FRIENDS IS...

K...

THIS IS HOW FRIENDS REALLY TREAT EACH OTHER....K...

NOT THE WAY YOU DONE IS TREATING FRIENDS K....

i write this not to scold people...

i just wanted you all know...

know how i really feel although some of the above thing i did't mention to you guys....k

i don't want to keep anymore...

i wanted to let it out here...

and forget all!!!

no more misunderstanding with you guys...

and no more anger upon you all...

thats all...

phhhewwwww~

really feeling much more better now....~o~

please you guys ask me to change my attitude...

then can you all change your own????

please...

most appreciate here....^^

~CALM~

hmm...

just can't figure out why...

why i feel so calm...

and i feel my pressure...stress...and all my burden gone...

while talking to you...

watching you...

whenever i angry, sad even emotional....

after you came and talk to me...

although you doesn't know what situation i'm in now...

but still it makes me feel better...

it's really miracle..

i just don't know what's that feeling is...

but i know...

whenever i think of you...

watching you...

the response of me...

only one..

smile and happy.....

just very weird...

now...

X-MAS is near...

what i hope...

is i can sit beside you...

and celebrate with you...

holding your hand....

comfort you...

pamper you...

but..

i know it's impossible...

i not gonna happen...

haiz...

but still i ain't gonna give up of you...

i will try my best!!!!

+U...XD

PROBLEM SOLVED!!!!XD

hey!!!

have you been very disappointed on people who you related to...

or maybe you really care for???

let me tell you here...

if you feel damn disappointed on a guy(similar to above statement)

then you really care or maybe love too much for them....

that's why you feel ''damn'' disappointed...

where you feel hot in you...

and you will feel the your aura is so strong until the paranormal also don't dare to touch you...

unable to control your emotion well...

or maybe you feel damn frustrated on that guy...

and most importantly...

you feel the person kinda like don't even know that you are EXIST in this WORLD!!!!

or know your existent but not the person carrier on you...

then i think you have the same situation with the writer here...==

i have been thinking and thinking...

at last i knew it well...

maybe it's not the person don't care at you or your existent...

maybe the person just don't know how to show their caring on you...

or maybe you think too much...

haha...

i think it's common...

especially for the couple one...XPP

or maybe the person have react on showing you their carrier on you...

it just you doesn't feel it...

because it's not the way they does that you really wanted from them....

if you still can't solve this kind of problem in you...

then you better go and have a proper conversation with them...

ask them...

that's the best way i think...hehe...

T.T...

before SPM :

ToT SPM so near....

when it will finish???

how does it look like???

scary????

while SPM :

OMG!!!

the paper...

haiz...

"easy than you thought" you know...

easy i say.....

after SPM :

finish???
what finish???

exam finish????

oh ya.....

yea!!!

(didn't notice that the time passing so damn fast....xP)

before form 5 :

(holiday time)

playing games....

watching tv....

go out with friends....

ready things for the next year....

having fun....

helping teachers at school.....

STILL COMPLAINING BORING LA...

COMPLAINING WHY HAVE HELP THE SCHOOL LA....

WHEN SCHOOL ALMOST START...

WHY HOLIDAY SO SHORT!!!!!!

AFTER SPM JIU SHUANG!!!!

after form 5 :

(after SPM and school)

playing games everyday..

no school things to worry about....

no one asking u to help the school...

can't fooling around with school friends anymore...

friends are leaving...

"flying to another place..."

NOW...

THIS IS REALLY CALLED AS BORED LIFE...

THIS IS ONLY CALLED AS ANNOYING...

HAVE TO FIND WORKS TO DO....

LAST TIME ONLY SIT AT HOME...

WAITING FOR POCKET MONEY...

NOW HAVE TO WORK BY YOURSELF....

NO MORE MEETS NEW FRIENDS(JUNIOR)...

HAIZ....

SCHOOL...ARE STILL BETTER FOR ME...T.T