not every friends that are obedient to you...
that are loyal to you...
and more...


1```
true friends is someone who is trying to know your present situation every time they meet you...
"how are you?"
"why so quite today?"
"anything happened?"
they won't complain about you...
they will just advice you...
and try to change your negative attitude...
but at the same time they accept what you are...
never stay away from you...


2```
true friends never ignore...even though they don't need your help...
they won't ignore you...
they will try to have as many event as they wanted to make the relationship closer...
they won't find you only when they needs help...


*I have meet a friend opposite from this statement...
he finds me really only when he needs help...
or wanted to get something from me...
although we are consider a good friend...
but whenever I find him for help...
he will eventually ignored 9 times out of 10 times without reason...
and if with reason...
the reason is very lame and untruthful and not logic...
sms no reply, call not answering...*
#SAD CASE#


but there's always a bright side....
I got a group of friends that appreciate me...
they always will come to me when I need help...
even though  I didn't ask for help...or didn't tell them my situation...
they will still try to find and try to help me...
that's what I call a true friends...


3```
true friends never criticise you unless they are just joking or really want us to change...
true friends never criticise you for real...
they are just joking all the time...
except if they really think that our personalities or attitude got problem...


MOST IMPORTANTLY IS :


they will help you when you are being tease by others...
they won't gather together with others to tease you...
they won't try to hurt you...
unless they are not your friends...




most disappointed is...
the best friend of mine(who I thought he was) didn't have those 3 statement...
but oppositely...

today choir performance quite ok...

they all try their best to perform well on the stage...

I will try my best to improve the choir...

nothing is impossible but of course more  time is needed...><'''

hope this time me and my friends could able to complete our plan well...

FEELING STUPID AND STRESSSSSSSSS!!!!

feel like dying!!!!!

really hope can find a place for me to shout out everything that keep deep in me...

things that makes me feel unhappy...

sometimes I wanted to thank to God for preparing a place for me to relax...

whenever I go in...

no matter how sad am I..

how emotional am I...

I will suddenly feel very calm when I am inside of it...

which is the church...

it makes me think way to solve my problem..

but of course...

not all...

it just sometimes...

maybe..God want me to be independent...

so sometimes I won't feel his glory and his mercy that could give me ideas to solve things...

but for sure...

God always make me calm my mind...

everytime when I'm in church...

and let my every breath comfortable and let go the thing that wrapping me...

AMEN!

I hope this time I can overcome the feeling inside me...

take it away...

arghhhh!!!!

that's a always a thing that I sometimes dislike about myself...

I think I always do stupid things...

for example...

I already know that they are not a good and loyal friends...

and selfish too...

but whenever they ask me for help I sure will try my best to help them..(most of the time)

but at the end...

if I failed to help..

they will blame me...

tease me...

but if I success to help...

they will forget me...

totally forget about my existent...

I felt disappointed..

and stupid...

why I always know how to pity other people but not to myself...

sometimes I will really sacrifice my own thing just to help others...

feel so stupid..

I don't they to repay or what...

I just want them to glad and happy that have a friend like me...

not ignore me or hurt me....aih...

ALL ABOUT MY FEELING TO HER!

I have been quite a long time no have that kind of "like" on someone...
Now I think I have one,
When I see her, my feeling is more than normal, heartbeat increased, wanted to near her, talk to her and of course want to know more about her...
wanting to know what is her hobby,
what she like,
what she dislike,
what is her favourite food, colour, things...
and most importantly...
what is the type of guy she like...hope it would be the same type like me...


I hardly talk to her,
because we are not in the same class,
and she is pretty famous and have many friends so I am too shy to walk to her or maybe pass by just to have a talk with her..=3= aih...


I know,
maybe many of you might tell that this feeling is just temporary or something else,
and will advice me not to think her and not to confess to her...
For me,
I think I should find out whether my feeling on her was real and not temporary...
I must go deeply...


Now almost whole day I was thinking of her...
Thinking what is she doing in her class?
Is she happy today?
Did she come to school today?
Will I meet her today? if so what should I talk to her?@@


And if I didn't see her in the morning assembly,
I will be thinking is she coming late today? 
or absent?
Sick?
Facing problem?
Is she okay?
one word to simplify this...
I AM CRAZY ABOUT HER!!!
but there's a problem...
I'm just too shy to near her or having a proper conversation with her...
I'm always greet her and giving her a very short talk...aih...-->sad case


I believe there's a chance...
there sure be a chance for me to be with her...
be her guardian!!!
BE HER LOVE ONE'S!!!!






~HOPE~  Y..Y aih...






Every time when I am not happy or stress,
or having some personal problem that are difficult to solve with...
after I see her and her smile...
my sadness turned to happy...
my stress a flew away...
and my problem get to solve it easily...plans just POP into my mind...
she is a miracle to me....


I hope every tomorrow will be better....^^
and can know more and more about her...