FORGIVE, FORGET AND CHANGE...

from now on...

I will try to forgive everyone that makes me sad, tease me or hurt me so badly...

because I found out that...maybe I also done something that makes people feels that too..

so it is better if I forgive someone...and hopefully the people that have been hurt by me will also forgive me...

after forgive...I will try to forget all the incident that makes me feel irritated...

and forget all the memories...

forget all the words that slash me like using knife that come from others...

forget all!!!

after this, I will try to change...

change myself to a better one...

I changed before...so I can do it for the second change...

I hope I am able to decrease my emotional act...

my bad attitude...

my laziness...

my care on something that is not so important...

and more!!!

today go out with my friends for jamuan...and then we played tang long...

I felt happy...

so I feel that if I wanted to continue this happiness...

I would need to change more...

the change in myself...

dump all the negative part...

but ofcourse not fully all...

what I mean is...when someone bully me or tease me or blame me out of nothing...

I still have to be angry and fight back...

hopefully I'm able to change to a better one....

the new me...

the most brand new me...

hope miracle happen...

IRRITATION

things that make me feel irritated...

1st,
     in school...the teacher are always forget to do our things...and they will like telling you they are busy...got many things to do...forget...and we as a student we accept teacher reason...
but when we forget...what we get is not acceptance of our reason but scold us...blame us...curse us...and sort of things...these are school life...
sometimes students didn't get to finish the things that given by teachers are not ONLY their fault...others also need to be blame...
no matter how well the leader can control the team mates...
no matter how well he can give out the orders...
no matter how well he can do anything that a leader need to...
he or she still need a fully COOPERATION from others member...RIGHT???
the teachers are always never think of this statement...
they will always stand at the RIGHT place...and we as a students always the WRONG ones...pity right?
and who will be blame most in the end of the story?? the LEADER!
not the members of the team...and not the teachers where they need to have responsible to...

2nd,
     being tease and blame are normal thing in life...but what it's seem to be so irritated is...when you are being blame out of nothing...and as for tease too...
you know what? when you done nothing wrong...you don't even related to it...but you get blame and scold by others...because of someone that wants to make you shy and wants to make as many trouble for you as they can...(maybe because of jealousy or others...)
it's actually really pity you know...
if it's a small cases then it's okay...just fine...
but if it's a big case? how? he or her life might be ruin by it...
right?
it always happened...not only in adult hood...but also in school...
sad case...

hope there will be changes in life...

and it's actually a good challenge in life...

which will strengthen you...

be strong!

TIRED~

Actually it is really tired especially doing things that you're not really interested in...
but you must do it due to your post and responsibility that your holding...
you must do this and that...you mustn't do this and that...
and so many question about why and why...
and so many many much more...
and some of the teacher was like??
what you want?
who are you?
what??!!!
can you just believe it? asking me what I want? and who I am?
wow...
are you really that famous until you forget your student name?
sad case for me of course! need to repeat my statement just to remind him...
nevermind...maybe the teacher really got too many things to do...

however...
the things going to end soon!!!yeah!!!
after this no more!!!

the second part is...
I am so thankful that I have some friends that help me a lot!!!
walk around the school with me...to find teachers...students...and other things...
and they also teach me...the subject that I'm weak in...
help me revise...
even come to my place just to help me in my studies!!!
they are so caring...
really thanks to them so much!!!

they are always the best!!!!

the last thing!!!argghhh!!!!

don't know how she feel about me...

until now I still think that my condition are not good enough for her...

she is clever, pretty, nice and much more...

I'm nothing...

I just can hope I think...

HOPING FOR A CHANCE!!!

A MIRACLE TO HAPPEN!!!

SHIT?!

marks dropped so much...
never get so low marks before....
really sad...
dunno whether I study in wrong way...
or I really don't understand the question...
or I really didn't put enough effort?
even my maths too...
doing the correct method...but marks being deducted because of the careless mistakes!!!!!!!!
no one likes to see his results to be bad right?
nothing much to say d...
the subject that I got confident to also disappoint me...
what else to say?
one word...

SHIT!

missing you...

thinking what are you doing now...
hmm...
it have been quite a time not chatting with you...
because it's exam time...don't want to disturb you...
and you also very seldom online too...=3=...(miss lor..)

don't misunderstand ya...
not talking to you in school doesn't mean that I have no feeling on you...
it just too shy...
don't know what to tell...
silly me...
I always miss those "GOOD OPPORTUNITY"...
I'm just so useless...><
should learn more...

have already crush on you...
no doubt of it....

actually I got so many things from my heart that I wanted to tell you so well....><
I wanted to tell you every situation of mine...and same goes to you...
I want to have a world just for you and me...
hope...
always hoping to have all those thing...

that day I saw someone so close to you...
it really makes me angry actually...
the anger comes from jealousy from me upon you...
really...
don't know why...
but I can't stop him...
because he is also your friend..
you don't see to be rejecting him...
so you still have your right to do what you want...
I just can't stop you..you know...
and seriously...I'm quite inspire him can stand so near to you and talk to you...see your smile directly and more...

do you have the same feeling like I do??
I think you don't~~
you also don't like me...
and I'm not your cup of tea...
most importantly I'm just a common form 6 friend to you...right?
you don't even notice what I do sometimes...
ya...

just sad...
and just can waiting for you...

I will wait you...
like you so much...
it's love

L~O~V~E

have sent a request

hope you accept it...