UNHAPPY YEAR~(most probably~)

Why I always face many difficulties...

facing something which is hard for me to solve...

hard for me to have a proper solution...

After I face so many situation...I realise that being patient is not a easy thing to do...

it is very very hard...

I must be patient and cool...

no matter how they tease me...

no matter how they disturb me...

no matter how they insult me...

and at the end...reply them with a wide smile...and try to overcome the anger inside me...and trying to find a proper way to make others to stop doing all that stuff...

I still can stand all this irritating manner...

but the think I can't stand is...

is how they see me...

how they judge me...

how they treat me within their own way...

without thinking or using their brain...

they just come out with stupid conclusion on me...

why I am saying this is because...

they are damn over with their acting and deeds...

it is too much for me to bare or ignore or maybe forgive...

I didn't scold back...

didn't fight back...

didn't get angry while being tease or insult...

give a nice smile and laugh on the horrible jokes that come out from your mouth...

DOESN'T MEAN THAT

I like it...

I am happy with it...

I want more...

it's fine to hurt my feeling more and more...

or even judging me non-temper guy...

IT'S NOT...

TOTALLY NOT...

being nice really isn't easy...

and being nice is not going to decrease the possibility on getting tease or insult...

it will just increase...

and you will just getting it more and more...

I also got feeling like you...

I also dislike being insult...

I also dislike being judge wrongly...
I am also human...

not God...

if you were me...

will you like those things happen on you?

of course not...

no one like those things...

everyone like nice things to happen on us...

not negative things...

hopefully things will get better...