FEELING STUPID AND STRESSSSSSSSS!!!!

feel like dying!!!!!

really hope can find a place for me to shout out everything that keep deep in me...

things that makes me feel unhappy...

sometimes I wanted to thank to God for preparing a place for me to relax...

whenever I go in...

no matter how sad am I..

how emotional am I...

I will suddenly feel very calm when I am inside of it...

which is the church...

it makes me think way to solve my problem..

but of course...

not all...

it just sometimes...

maybe..God want me to be independent...

so sometimes I won't feel his glory and his mercy that could give me ideas to solve things...

but for sure...

God always make me calm my mind...

everytime when I'm in church...

and let my every breath comfortable and let go the thing that wrapping me...

AMEN!

I hope this time I can overcome the feeling inside me...

take it away...

arghhhh!!!!

that's a always a thing that I sometimes dislike about myself...

I think I always do stupid things...

for example...

I already know that they are not a good and loyal friends...

and selfish too...

but whenever they ask me for help I sure will try my best to help them..(most of the time)

but at the end...

if I failed to help..

they will blame me...

tease me...

but if I success to help...

they will forget me...

totally forget about my existent...

I felt disappointed..

and stupid...

why I always know how to pity other people but not to myself...

sometimes I will really sacrifice my own thing just to help others...

feel so stupid..

I don't they to repay or what...

I just want them to glad and happy that have a friend like me...

not ignore me or hurt me....aih...