FEEL SO LONELY

today i feel so lonely....
really hope someone can come near me and sit beside me and talk to me...
sharing our thought and secret together...
can help each others when is needed...

today...at school i saw a girl which i know her pretty well...
although i seldom talk to her or play with her...
but still i know what person she was...
she played water with a guy, which i hate most.......(seriously...)
she poured the water onto the guy...

at the first i felt happy...
because i don't have to teach him a lesson by myself...
but when i continue watching them playing water at the canteen...
i can see that they are having fun over there....

then i started to feel angry...
not happy...
at the same time JEALOUS!!!
me myself also don't believe it...
it can't be real...

after recess i still thinking of the incident...
keep on THINKING...
and i felt like wanna chop that guy into pieces...
and i can neither pay attention nor focus in class while teacher is teaching in front...

am i really crush on her???
until now i still keep thinking the question..
and i still have anger in me....

after the incident happen i started to feel so lonely...ToT
really hope that the guy i mention is ME!!!!!!